Rowing
Why is the sea so far away?
They both stare at the tulips. Then they don’t. God is tangled in kite string and we look away.
There is something here. I can feel it. It rules even the cosmos and is bigger than all time.
I want to be better at this. I want my relationship with time and occasion to be a reflex instead of the result of effort, and there is no reason it shouldn’t be. I have the inner loot now.
I think this love thing is really the only way to get through this, to circumvent our differences. I am appealing to their soul; asking them to put down their swords and join me in simply “being” on this planet.
So we bring all of our experiences with us, and I don’t know why but I feel like I’m going to burst. All we have to do is love each other, and the planet. That’s all. That’s the foundation.
...how do I reconcile the meeting of his goodness and his fuckery here in my own miserable self?